Re: Describe how you came down from your LGAT high

I was recruited into going to a Forum weekend by a friend. This friend was part of group of people that I considered cooler than me, I aspired to be as creative and interesting as them. They were Rajneesh disciples and all had major issues, but I viewed them as superior.

I dutifully did the weekend. I realized that this wasn't going to help include me into that circle of friends, they were oblivious. I had been recruited, and that friend had already moved on.

I decided to "go with the flow", which was a mistake. I already had a habit of spacing out, a coping mechanism from a rough childhood, and the Forum triggered more of that in me. I drifted through several high pressure groups after this.

My high after the Forum involved making bad choices. I was in a higher stage of drift. More easily persuadable and manipulated.

I did not really come down fully until I escaped the last cult I was part of, Church of Immortal Consciousness in Arizona, led by Trina and Steven Kamp. By reading the cult education forum I finally began to understand what had happened.

Coming down, learning to be realistic, was uncomfortable and at times I was depressed. The passage of time and education about destructive groups and lgats made a big difference.