Hello Noncompliant94,
I participated over a 3 month period. I did 2 weekend sessions, plus a 10 week course plus 1 day of a longer course which I opted out of.
I was in a depressed state before I participated but I was also aware that the sessions were making me worse and that is why I opted out. I became terrified. Initially I felt euphoria at having realised I had to get out and escape. Then that sense of meaningless and emptiness you describe descended on me.
I think the training creates these feelings for two reasons. 1) We emotionally invested in this training bringing meaning to our lives. We wanted an answer and there was none.
But no 2) is that they use underhand tactics to plant the idea that life is empty and meaningless in our subconscious so that we will go back and take more courses and of course give them more of our hard earned money.
The only way I found to move on was to fully understand what had actually happened to me. And I did that by spending hours reading all the threads about my LGAT on this wonderful forum.
For example I discovered that one exercise which seemed harmless was actually designed to implant fear in our minds and to keep us frightened. They also use waking hypnosis to again implant their ideology.Posts by the Anticult and Corboy are very useful.
You will get better but it does take time. If you can,try and do things that used to give you pleasure or positive meaning in the past. Enjoy the sunshine, the Spring, anything that is life affirming and you will get through this. It took me longer than I would have expected for something I only engaged with for 3 months, I would say I was reading this site regularly for 6 months to a year. But that is not so surprising when I felt duped and I wanted to know why and regain control of myself.
Keep going and you will get through this.
I participated over a 3 month period. I did 2 weekend sessions, plus a 10 week course plus 1 day of a longer course which I opted out of.
I was in a depressed state before I participated but I was also aware that the sessions were making me worse and that is why I opted out. I became terrified. Initially I felt euphoria at having realised I had to get out and escape. Then that sense of meaningless and emptiness you describe descended on me.
I think the training creates these feelings for two reasons. 1) We emotionally invested in this training bringing meaning to our lives. We wanted an answer and there was none.
But no 2) is that they use underhand tactics to plant the idea that life is empty and meaningless in our subconscious so that we will go back and take more courses and of course give them more of our hard earned money.
The only way I found to move on was to fully understand what had actually happened to me. And I did that by spending hours reading all the threads about my LGAT on this wonderful forum.
For example I discovered that one exercise which seemed harmless was actually designed to implant fear in our minds and to keep us frightened. They also use waking hypnosis to again implant their ideology.Posts by the Anticult and Corboy are very useful.
You will get better but it does take time. If you can,try and do things that used to give you pleasure or positive meaning in the past. Enjoy the sunshine, the Spring, anything that is life affirming and you will get through this. It took me longer than I would have expected for something I only engaged with for 3 months, I would say I was reading this site regularly for 6 months to a year. But that is not so surprising when I felt duped and I wanted to know why and regain control of myself.
Keep going and you will get through this.