To add more details to this thread, in response to Kdag's experiences which jogged my memory.
One element that also destabilised me was the way they would always make it the participant's fault and never the LGAT's, if you experienced a problem. I'll give you a specific example.
On my 2nd weekend, a few months after the initial weekend, I experienced such a powerful sense of fear that I wanted to die. I went to the toilets,crying and one of the volunteers found me and took me to talk to one of the senior members of the company.
I told the man that I wanted to die and instead of being kind and concerned, he turned it back on me and said that I had hurt him by revealing this.I was stunned and apologised. Which of course what he wanted me to feel and do.
He then made it even worse by saying that I needed a man in my life and basically to 'shut up' and be grateful.
I was traumatisted by this back then but with the view of hindsight, it was a painful but useful learning experience in the way people attempt to control others.
I no longer blame myself for the pain all this caused and realise how I was being manipulated. And this helped release me from the depression I felt on leaving a LGAT.
One element that also destabilised me was the way they would always make it the participant's fault and never the LGAT's, if you experienced a problem. I'll give you a specific example.
On my 2nd weekend, a few months after the initial weekend, I experienced such a powerful sense of fear that I wanted to die. I went to the toilets,crying and one of the volunteers found me and took me to talk to one of the senior members of the company.
I told the man that I wanted to die and instead of being kind and concerned, he turned it back on me and said that I had hurt him by revealing this.I was stunned and apologised. Which of course what he wanted me to feel and do.
He then made it even worse by saying that I needed a man in my life and basically to 'shut up' and be grateful.
I was traumatisted by this back then but with the view of hindsight, it was a painful but useful learning experience in the way people attempt to control others.
I no longer blame myself for the pain all this caused and realise how I was being manipulated. And this helped release me from the depression I felt on leaving a LGAT.